Guillain-Barre Syndrome: My Story
In 2001, when I was 58, I developed odd symptoms in my legs - pain and weakness, falling on the sidewalk and unable to get up without assistance. I first went outpatient to my physician who had no idea what the problem might be. Nervous and living alone in an apartment, I carried my portable phone with me. One evening I fell and couldn't get up. I called 911 and the EMTs from my neighborhood fire station came and transported me to the ER of my Harvard-teaching community hospital in Massachusetts. The physician asked me to get up from the examining table and walk. I told him the problem was not walking, but falling. He found nothing wrong with me and sent me home. A few days later, at home, I fell again. I called 911, got the same EMTs, went to the same ER, was told nothing was wrong and was sent home again. Then I fell a third time. Having the same EMTs for all the three calls, they assured me that this time they would insist I be admitted. I was admitted but to the geripsych unit , as they believed I was making my symptoms up for attention! This scenario is well known in the disability community. If a physician cannot determine a medical cause for reported symptoms, the default position is too often psychiatric.
I was placed into a bed and later an orderly told me to get up, as the psychiatrist wanted to interview me. When I told him I couldn't get up, he told me I was lying. After the interview, I asked to see a "regular" doctor. She came, had blood work done and later told me the results indicated kidney failure. She put me in the ICU, all the while I kept saying to everyone "It's my legs" to no avail. Retrospectively, I know my elevated creatine level indicated not kidney failure but evidence of a rare muscle disorder. After 3 days in the ICU without kidney failure, the team finally decided to listen to me. They did a muscle biopsy and told me I had Polymyositis. I was in a med-surg unit for a few days, commenting each evening to my attending "This is odd. My feet are paralyzed". Next evening "My ankles are paralyzed", Next day "My lower legs are paralyzed". Then I had complete respiratory failure and was in the ICU on mechanical ventilation for four months, not expected to live. A friend told me the medical team was frantic, not knowing what was wrong with me. Eventually, I was discharged to a respiratory rehabilitation hospital as I was still medically unstable. I stayed for a year. I was then discharged to a nursing home on a trach and feeding tube, where I have been living for 13 years. In 2006, I was decannulated after 5 years intubated, to the surprise of many.
In 2010 I went for a consult with a Rheumatologist at a Boston teaching hospital where I was made a research patient. After 9 years, I got my correct diagnosis- Guillain-Barre Syndrome (GBS). The team concluded I have GBS based on three factors - my report of what I have since learned is called "upward progression of paralysis", the fact that Polymyositis is not a paralyzing disorder, and finally, by looking at the original muscle biopsy slides, where the inflammation of the muscle tissue was insufficient for a diagnosis of Polymyositis. Because of the failure to be properly diagnosed, I never had the opportunity for treatment of GBS in the acute phase.
Today, I am in my 14th year as a nursing home resident due to quadriparesis, an inability to not only walk, wash, and dress myself, but also to cook and clean. I can use my hands in spite of the contractures of my fingers, and can brush my teeth, feed myself, turn pages of books, read, write and use a computer. My mind is intact. In 2011, I got a power chair which permits me to go outside when I want, after 9 1/2 years living inside facilities. I'm an accidental nursing home and disability advocate. In 2011, I read an article in the Boston Globe about the possibility of a nursing home bed-hold program being eliminated. This would have put me at risk, after a hospitalization, of losing my "home" and having to live in another facility, if my current bed were filled while I was away. I wrote a letter in support of retaining the program to our House Ways and Means committee. The letter was circulated and I was asked to become a state and national nursing home advocate. I am now an active nursing home, disability and elder advocate, nationally published writer, speaker and consultant. You can find some of my work by googling "Penelope Ann Shaw, PhD". I am leading an interesting, and hopefully useful, and fun life as a survivor of acute GBS. I enjoy my personal life immensely, mostly my lifelong friends who have supported me in every way during my medical journey.
Originally published in 2016 by the GBS/CIDP Foundation International: “It’s Only Rare Until It’s You. Stories of Strength and Survival from the Guillain-Barre and Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy Community”. Reprinted with permission.
Penelope Ann Shaw, PhD, a doctor of French Language and Literature, is a former university faculty member and administrator of English Language Learning. Now a nursing home resident, she is on the boards of the Massachusetts Advocates for Nursing Home Reform, and the Disability Policy Consortium. Boston. She is a member of the disability patient access focus group at the Massachusetts General Hospital. Boston. She was named an elder trailblazer for Older Americans Month 2016 by the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services. Administration on Aging's Administration for Community Living.